Update

Well it's been almost a year since my last post, I'm sorry about that. I have been so busy with my son and college. My son was born on August 22, 2013 at 7:50 p.m. weighing at 9 lbs 5 oz and 21" long. My fiance missed his birth because he was at BCT for the Army. His unit was graduating Sept 12th from Ft. Jackson, me and our almost 2 month old at the time went with his family to go see him for Family Day which was held on Sept 11th, well come to find out the day before (Sept 10th) he wasn't going to be graduating, but was still able to spend majority of Family Day with us. We are no longer a Military family, he got Chapter 11 Discharge which is Failure to Adapt, and came home on Sept 27th. We had struggled till February of '14 until he got a job at Publix. He's been there for almost 3 months now, and I had a job at McDonald's for only a month before they let me go, which by all means yes I loved getting my OWN money, but I am so glad to be out of that HELL HOLE they call McDonald's. I got treated like such shit there it was unbelievable. Now I am back to being a stay at home mom with our beautiful baby boy who is now 8 months old! He will be 9 months on May 22nd. When everyone said that time flies by fast, I didn't believe them, but OH MY GOSH now I do! It's so crazy that he will be a year old this coming August, like seriously where has this time gone!

You know, my entire time of being a mom, I had no one to turn to but my own mom. My soon to be MIL hasn't been help, she rarely sees him, but then gets all bitchy and blames it on me that she never gets to see him. Um last time I checked, you have my phone number so you can call me whenever you're off. She expects me to ALWAYS call her, like NO! I'm busy 24/7. So if YOU really want to SEE him, then you can CALL ME. Why should I make the effort to go and see you when you don't make an effort as well. Two way street here. I have NO friends, I have NO friends who are mom's. I feel like I'm doing this alone, with no one to turn to if I need to. Yes I have my fiance, but even then I still have to fight with him EVERY day when we see each other to do anything with our son. He says that he will help more when he's older, like um NO, that is NOT how it works sorry. Not sorry. You are HIS father, I should have to ask you to do something for him, if you hear him crying then go check on him, if he's wet then change him. I shouldn't have to fight with you every single day. Yeah I understand that we don't see each other EVERY day, but when he DO see each other I expect you to help out with YOUR son! I will not do everything all by myself every single day even when we see each other. OH WAIT! I do that anyways. Yes I love you dearly, and everything, but seriously STEP UP. Okay yes I will admit, you have come a long way since you first came home to us, but it shouldn't matter to you how many times I ask you to change his diaper, or feed him, or check on him to see if he's okay, you should do it anyways. Stop complaining about changing his diaper a lot, GET OVER IT! I change his diaper 24/7. I feed him, I change his clothes, I check on him, I DO EVERYTHING ALL BY MYSELF when it's just me and him. GET OVER IT AND JUST DO IT!

Sorry for all the ranting, just had to get this all off my chest. Thanks for reading. Will hopefully keep up with blogs from now on.

XO~ Christine